Coincidentally, I looked up the word angel too last week, probably after writing my own angel letter (on a completely different and darker-to me-subject...) ‘Errand Ghost’ isn’t that just enchanting and when I think of it, so true... until of course we look at the negative, the Fallen Angel... and again I have experience, recent and old... I have been pondering thoughts on this.
There are many things I do which take physical energy as apposed to emotional, I never begrudge any of it but… there are too many times I say yes at my own expense and none more so than recently. And now, when holiday season starts, I am exhausted.. and beyond.
So… whilst I haven’t mastered it yet, the 8 of pentacles has made me see, finally, that I have to, urgently, master how to share my time equally, without exhaustion but still with a smile. I fear this may involve practicing the word No, and that will be so very hard…
Thank you Jenna, for your insight and sharing, always I see and feel the spiritual link… ✨♥️✨
Thank YOU, Susie! I just read your Angel letter and found it breathtaking. I could so relate. I went to Catholic school as a very young child (though my family was Methodist). All the ritual, and those binaries of good vs evil that was palpable in the Catholic churches, made a deep impression on my young self. BUT it was actually a conversation I had with a nun at the tender age of 6 that put me on my path to finding my own spirituality. (ooooh...new post idea forming, thank you!) That you found your hill as your holy place and much more, your deity, your sacred beloved, is so beautiful I can hardly stand it.
And to your other point...I am right there with you, needing to master the word No. Every time I think I'm pretty good at this, an opportunity arises where I feel obligated to say Yes despite every cell in my body screaming to say No. I think maybe I want to master the art of listening to my body more.
Jenna, I really liked the "errand ghost", makes the "angel" aspect seem less Christian. And I loved the Darth Vader and the 8ofP comparison, wow really right on.
My fallen angel self-ridicules. No matter how good I get at something, it is never enough. My response is I push harder or give up. OR I hear the shaming words and decide not to focus on it. The latter has been my practice the past few years. Have not mastered that one yet though...
I SO get this, Julie! I remembering discovering in college that I didn't know how to get a B. I could either get perfect scores on everything, or I could completely fail. I literally did not know how to do "just enough". It was a big wakeup call for me. I guess it's about perfectionism and my inability to think of my own B-level work as mastery. Ever since, I've been on a sort of mission to feel satisfied with 80%, but like you, my fallen angel won't quite let me do it. (Side note: I've got something I want to email to you if I ever finish reading it.)
Love this Jenna! I’ve lately been thinking about how far I’ve come with my photography, so that definite strikes a chord with the right of pentacles. Ooof for the angel though, it hits home since I just came out of three days of family events for the holidays, which required a lot of holding emotional space for other people, and now I’m exhausted 😴
You are definitely a master photographer, Kerani! 🤗✨ Your photos bring such richness and delight to my life. And, oh my gosh, the Angel and the holidays. I think it's no coincidence that's the archetype that came up now when so many of us in America just had Thanksgiving and are now headed into the winter holidays season. This is such a reminder for me to keep checking my own capacities first, which I'm not very good at.
Aww that's so kind of you to say 🥹🧡 really happy you enjoy them!
Definitely not a coincidence. It's so easy to feel stretched thin at this time, especially as it exacerbates underlying family tensions. Feeling this a lot lately.
I definitely have to watch out for the fallen Angel playing front and center in my life in the desire to 'help' and perhaps feel a false sense of virtue in doing so. Yikes!
Mastery is interesting! When I think about it I realize it flutuates, sometimes day to day depending on my own energy level. However, after being in private practice as a chiropractor for 27 years I feel I can finally say I am a master and I gotta tell you, it feels awesome! It took me at least 15 years of diligent practice at getting better to even begin to get there.
Thank you for this great post Jenna and the very special pdf I can keep❤
Oh me too with the fallen Angel, Donna! I know exactly what you mean. And thank you for declaring your mastery! You are indeed a master chiropractor. I also think you're a master coach, teacher, writer and friend.
Wow Jenna! This is genius. Thank you so much for doing the work that you are doing and sharing it in the world! I so value and appreciate what you do!✨🌟💖🙏🕊️
Thank you so much for sharing that, David! ❤️ Your image of the stiletto blade is both chilling and exquisite (proof of your talent as a wordsmith!). I've experienced a wild ride with a daunting deity myself and, so, I am holding space and sending love for you in your experience with that. I look forward to one day reading a post from you about what transpires there.
Coincidentally, I looked up the word angel too last week, probably after writing my own angel letter (on a completely different and darker-to me-subject...) ‘Errand Ghost’ isn’t that just enchanting and when I think of it, so true... until of course we look at the negative, the Fallen Angel... and again I have experience, recent and old... I have been pondering thoughts on this.
There are many things I do which take physical energy as apposed to emotional, I never begrudge any of it but… there are too many times I say yes at my own expense and none more so than recently. And now, when holiday season starts, I am exhausted.. and beyond.
So… whilst I haven’t mastered it yet, the 8 of pentacles has made me see, finally, that I have to, urgently, master how to share my time equally, without exhaustion but still with a smile. I fear this may involve practicing the word No, and that will be so very hard…
Thank you Jenna, for your insight and sharing, always I see and feel the spiritual link… ✨♥️✨
Thank YOU, Susie! I just read your Angel letter and found it breathtaking. I could so relate. I went to Catholic school as a very young child (though my family was Methodist). All the ritual, and those binaries of good vs evil that was palpable in the Catholic churches, made a deep impression on my young self. BUT it was actually a conversation I had with a nun at the tender age of 6 that put me on my path to finding my own spirituality. (ooooh...new post idea forming, thank you!) That you found your hill as your holy place and much more, your deity, your sacred beloved, is so beautiful I can hardly stand it.
And to your other point...I am right there with you, needing to master the word No. Every time I think I'm pretty good at this, an opportunity arises where I feel obligated to say Yes despite every cell in my body screaming to say No. I think maybe I want to master the art of listening to my body more.
Errand ghost!!!!! 👏👏👏
Yes! Isn't that great?!
Jenna, I really liked the "errand ghost", makes the "angel" aspect seem less Christian. And I loved the Darth Vader and the 8ofP comparison, wow really right on.
My fallen angel self-ridicules. No matter how good I get at something, it is never enough. My response is I push harder or give up. OR I hear the shaming words and decide not to focus on it. The latter has been my practice the past few years. Have not mastered that one yet though...
I SO get this, Julie! I remembering discovering in college that I didn't know how to get a B. I could either get perfect scores on everything, or I could completely fail. I literally did not know how to do "just enough". It was a big wakeup call for me. I guess it's about perfectionism and my inability to think of my own B-level work as mastery. Ever since, I've been on a sort of mission to feel satisfied with 80%, but like you, my fallen angel won't quite let me do it. (Side note: I've got something I want to email to you if I ever finish reading it.)
Love this Jenna! I’ve lately been thinking about how far I’ve come with my photography, so that definite strikes a chord with the right of pentacles. Ooof for the angel though, it hits home since I just came out of three days of family events for the holidays, which required a lot of holding emotional space for other people, and now I’m exhausted 😴
You are definitely a master photographer, Kerani! 🤗✨ Your photos bring such richness and delight to my life. And, oh my gosh, the Angel and the holidays. I think it's no coincidence that's the archetype that came up now when so many of us in America just had Thanksgiving and are now headed into the winter holidays season. This is such a reminder for me to keep checking my own capacities first, which I'm not very good at.
Aww that's so kind of you to say 🥹🧡 really happy you enjoy them!
Definitely not a coincidence. It's so easy to feel stretched thin at this time, especially as it exacerbates underlying family tensions. Feeling this a lot lately.
I definitely have to watch out for the fallen Angel playing front and center in my life in the desire to 'help' and perhaps feel a false sense of virtue in doing so. Yikes!
Mastery is interesting! When I think about it I realize it flutuates, sometimes day to day depending on my own energy level. However, after being in private practice as a chiropractor for 27 years I feel I can finally say I am a master and I gotta tell you, it feels awesome! It took me at least 15 years of diligent practice at getting better to even begin to get there.
Thank you for this great post Jenna and the very special pdf I can keep❤
Oh me too with the fallen Angel, Donna! I know exactly what you mean. And thank you for declaring your mastery! You are indeed a master chiropractor. I also think you're a master coach, teacher, writer and friend.
Wow Jenna! This is genius. Thank you so much for doing the work that you are doing and sharing it in the world! I so value and appreciate what you do!✨🌟💖🙏🕊️
Oh, thank you, Camilla! 💕💕💕 I feel exactly the same about you and your work!
Thank you so much for sharing that, David! ❤️ Your image of the stiletto blade is both chilling and exquisite (proof of your talent as a wordsmith!). I've experienced a wild ride with a daunting deity myself and, so, I am holding space and sending love for you in your experience with that. I look forward to one day reading a post from you about what transpires there.