I’m so glad I just found your substack wow. Yes I’ve been looking at this exact cycle in my life as I recently left an abusive relationship and notice mental tendencies to not want to fully move on if that makes sense. Very much ties into everything discussed in this article.
Yay, Tesstamona, I'm so glad you're here! Welcome! ❤️ I'm sorry about your experience with abuse and I'm glad you got out. I totally get what you mean about the mental tendency to not want to fully move on. I can only speak for my own experience, but it seems that I can't just erase my wounds anyway. They're part of me now, and when I can embrace them (but not be defined by them) they become part of my wholeness and even help protect me, if that makes sense. It's an unfolding process for me for sure!
It definitely does. I’m exhausted but starting the healing from this, which always leads back to the day one issues so, another opportunity to see what I haven’t within myself before I suppose. 🙏❤️🙏
To hold and to be held by oneself I find is the greatest gift I can offer myself. It wasn't always like that. I didn't know how. I wasn't sure it was "allowed". And yet now I realise that unless I am true to myself I can not give the way I wish to others. The wound in me heals when I can Listen, Hold, Be True to me, and this in turn creates groundedness, inner strength and authenticity.
So perfectly said, Sam, thank you! Being in right relationship with ourselves is paramount. I love that you shine light here on being not only the one who is held, but the one who holds. That is so fulfilling. Thank you for that insight!
I’ve come late to the Wounded Child and 2 of Pentacles. Even so, as with every week, I find myself ever drawn into the cards drawn through you and your exquisite interpretation of them, your wise weaving of the two, and your guidance. My comment is less about what was drawn this week--though of course, I resonate--and more about your gift to us. It’s exquisite. A weekly resting place. A place I look forward to coming home to. A place of shared recognition. A place where the soul shines through.
Perhaps these cards are those that some of us have been holding unknowingly for much of our lives, the reason our lives doesn’t advance as we’d wish. For me personally, it is not so much The Wounded Child, I carry mine, they have grown and evolved with me and I deal with them - perhaps not always in the most spiritual way admittedly but they have become part of my skin and body.
They are a reminder.
The Two of Pentacles however, well perhaps you know the rest? The juggling, the carrying of too heavy a load... the acting on a whim because the weight of decisions is about to topple the balance completely...
Perhaps now is the time to redress the balance?
Thank you for sharing your ever guiding light sweet soul. 🙏🏽💞🍂
Thank you so much for commenting, Susie! I hope that, whatever transpires, your load feels lighter soon. Having a relentless stream of decisions to make is like having sandpaper on our insides, it thins us out and wears us down. I'm sending you a big hug and lots of love and blessings to get through it all. I'd like to think the coming winter will help to slow things down, but maybe just the opposite is true? I do know that you have a barn full of logs ready to feed stove, so I'm envisioning you tucked in cozy there with nothing to do but sip on a mug of tea.
Ooooof Jenna! Once again, it’s like you’re speaking directly about my life right now. I so resonate with this reading right now. Lately I think I’ve been holding onto childhood wounds and insecurities, feeling like I have to do more to be good enough. Your words make me realize that I’ve been doing this, and I need to go stand under a tree until I feel better.
Also I LOVE your perspective about integrating with the wounds to accept them. I think there’s a lot of talk about healing as erasing, but I think your idea is a much more realistic and healthy approach.
Thank you so much, Kerani! I've never had any luck with erasing wounds, though I've tried very hard to do just that. I think standing under a tree until we feel better is the best advice ever. Oh! And I'd want a big stone under the tree with me too. I remember once reading a published diary from a woman who grew up here in New Mexico in the 19th century (wild west days) and she said that whenever she or her brother were sick, their mother would make them lie down under a tree from sunup to sundown and, every time, it seemed to be the medicine they needed.
Yesterday, I asked myself what is the past? A wounded past is a fixed, unchangeable thing. It has a negative identity and doesn't flow into the present. I am old and done with this low frequency associated with my particular family.
Thank you for sharing this, Julie. 💕 The pain from wounds can be unimaginable, maybe especially when it comes from family. I'm sending you and your wounded past lots of love today.
This is what stood out for me today, "They become both the wound and the antidote." My next post I am working on speaks to this. The power of being wounded, ill, addicted, etc as the alchemy that creates the antidote, the medicine. A process that is not a quick fix or a cover for the symptoms. Which seems like what the 2ofP is doing. Instead when surrendered to, provides an amazing elixir for one's self and those they end up supporting. Thanks Jenna!
Such wisdom here, Julie, thank you! My tendency has always been to reach for the quick fix when I don't feel well (which I honor as being exactly what I needed for my capacity at the time), but when we can alchemize and integrate the pain it becomes about so much more than our own individual experience. That's truly beautiful. Thank you for helping me to see that!
Thanks Jenna, I think I'm going to take a break from the enquires myself this week, but take care of my inner child. Wonderful prompts as always and I take your wisdom and message with me for comfort and reassurance. 🙏
Ah yes, my weekly message that never fails to amaze me! Thank you Jenna❤
This reading gives clarity to what is already staring me in the face, the childhood wounds and the orphan, while the Two of Pentacles reminds me that perhaps I'm holding too much as things are wobbly. This is confirmation...as if the Universe has one hand on each side of my face (gently of course!) saying "See here Sweetie, listen to Jenna"!!
Thank you for doing this, I appreciate your consistency. It is becoming something of a guiding light for me and I love learning what each of the cards mean.
Donna, I LOVE that we're here together! And that we can help each other hold things when it's too much. You're a guiding light for me too and I look forward to what the future holds for us both.
I hear you, Elyse! It's so easy for me to push relationships away (I think the Hermit plays a role in this too). I'm taking baby steps towards understanding the significance of inter-dependence as I see more and more through the lens of relational living. But it's a struggle!
I am still sitting in the corner, pouting like a hyper-independent grown woman child.... and the only reason why I am still in the corner is because my ego will not allow me to own up to my bullshit!!!!
It's interesting, I feel like there's so much about 1111 that I don't yet understand, but know that it's important. My ancestors especially, will show me repeating numbers when they're popping in to say hi or otherwise letting me know that they're thinking of me. Other repeating numbers feel like the equivalent of them waving to me, while 1111 feels like they've come in and gathered me up in a bear hug. I think there's much more to know about it all, but so far that's what I've got. Lol. What does it mean to you?
Love this piece Jenna! The wounded energy I’m releasing and transmuting this week is guilt so I can allow spaciousness for empowerment and liberation to be integrated in my BEing. Thank you for your wisdom, as always 🙏🏼💜
This is beautiful, Christine, thank you! I love that you named the specific wound. Guilt is so potent. It's like an even deeper echo of a wound, a shadow of a shadow if that makes sense. For me, guilt has sometimes been a guide to self-forgiveness, but it's not always easy. As I was just typing this, I tapped into your energy and felt a profound sense of spaciousness and empowerment, exactly as you said, you beautiful being! 💕
I feel the same way, Miriam. More and more, I've come to think of "healing" not so much as getting rid of wounds, but integrating them into our wholeness as best we can, whatever that might look like. For me, the whole concept of "getting over it" never seemed to work. Thank you so much for being here, Miriam!
I never liked the term “healing from trauma” because it almost seems like you move past it where triggers no longer effect you, but that’s not always possible. But the way you put it makes a lot more sense. It does become who you are and that’s not always a bad thing.
Thank you so much for commenting, David. ❤️ I thought of you while writing this post. At the very beginning of your book, you wrote, "I sank my roots into the soil here and raised my face to the sky. I didn't discard my past. It lives inside me. My present self is a product of many things, including everything in my past. The important thing is, now I am at peace with all of it." I love that so much and I think it beautifully reflects the path of the Wounded Child.
I’m so glad I just found your substack wow. Yes I’ve been looking at this exact cycle in my life as I recently left an abusive relationship and notice mental tendencies to not want to fully move on if that makes sense. Very much ties into everything discussed in this article.
Yay, Tesstamona, I'm so glad you're here! Welcome! ❤️ I'm sorry about your experience with abuse and I'm glad you got out. I totally get what you mean about the mental tendency to not want to fully move on. I can only speak for my own experience, but it seems that I can't just erase my wounds anyway. They're part of me now, and when I can embrace them (but not be defined by them) they become part of my wholeness and even help protect me, if that makes sense. It's an unfolding process for me for sure!
It definitely does. I’m exhausted but starting the healing from this, which always leads back to the day one issues so, another opportunity to see what I haven’t within myself before I suppose. 🙏❤️🙏
Sending you blessings and love on this journey. ❤️🙏 Reach out if you need anything!
To hold and to be held by oneself I find is the greatest gift I can offer myself. It wasn't always like that. I didn't know how. I wasn't sure it was "allowed". And yet now I realise that unless I am true to myself I can not give the way I wish to others. The wound in me heals when I can Listen, Hold, Be True to me, and this in turn creates groundedness, inner strength and authenticity.
Thank you as always x
So perfectly said, Sam, thank you! Being in right relationship with ourselves is paramount. I love that you shine light here on being not only the one who is held, but the one who holds. That is so fulfilling. Thank you for that insight!
Jenna,
I’ve come late to the Wounded Child and 2 of Pentacles. Even so, as with every week, I find myself ever drawn into the cards drawn through you and your exquisite interpretation of them, your wise weaving of the two, and your guidance. My comment is less about what was drawn this week--though of course, I resonate--and more about your gift to us. It’s exquisite. A weekly resting place. A place I look forward to coming home to. A place of shared recognition. A place where the soul shines through.
Ever with gratitude and with love,
Renée
Thank you, Renee! That warms my heart. Blessings upon blessings to you! ❤️❤️❤️
Perhaps these cards are those that some of us have been holding unknowingly for much of our lives, the reason our lives doesn’t advance as we’d wish. For me personally, it is not so much The Wounded Child, I carry mine, they have grown and evolved with me and I deal with them - perhaps not always in the most spiritual way admittedly but they have become part of my skin and body.
They are a reminder.
The Two of Pentacles however, well perhaps you know the rest? The juggling, the carrying of too heavy a load... the acting on a whim because the weight of decisions is about to topple the balance completely...
Perhaps now is the time to redress the balance?
Thank you for sharing your ever guiding light sweet soul. 🙏🏽💞🍂
Thank you so much for commenting, Susie! I hope that, whatever transpires, your load feels lighter soon. Having a relentless stream of decisions to make is like having sandpaper on our insides, it thins us out and wears us down. I'm sending you a big hug and lots of love and blessings to get through it all. I'd like to think the coming winter will help to slow things down, but maybe just the opposite is true? I do know that you have a barn full of logs ready to feed stove, so I'm envisioning you tucked in cozy there with nothing to do but sip on a mug of tea.
Ooooof Jenna! Once again, it’s like you’re speaking directly about my life right now. I so resonate with this reading right now. Lately I think I’ve been holding onto childhood wounds and insecurities, feeling like I have to do more to be good enough. Your words make me realize that I’ve been doing this, and I need to go stand under a tree until I feel better.
Also I LOVE your perspective about integrating with the wounds to accept them. I think there’s a lot of talk about healing as erasing, but I think your idea is a much more realistic and healthy approach.
Thank you so much, Kerani! I've never had any luck with erasing wounds, though I've tried very hard to do just that. I think standing under a tree until we feel better is the best advice ever. Oh! And I'd want a big stone under the tree with me too. I remember once reading a published diary from a woman who grew up here in New Mexico in the 19th century (wild west days) and she said that whenever she or her brother were sick, their mother would make them lie down under a tree from sunup to sundown and, every time, it seemed to be the medicine they needed.
Integration as “expanding their wholeness around their wounds.” Love this, so true.
Thank you, Kimberly! You were on my mind as I wrote about this. I know you know about integrating wounds. ❤️
Yesterday, I asked myself what is the past? A wounded past is a fixed, unchangeable thing. It has a negative identity and doesn't flow into the present. I am old and done with this low frequency associated with my particular family.
Thank you for sharing this, Julie. 💕 The pain from wounds can be unimaginable, maybe especially when it comes from family. I'm sending you and your wounded past lots of love today.
This is what stood out for me today, "They become both the wound and the antidote." My next post I am working on speaks to this. The power of being wounded, ill, addicted, etc as the alchemy that creates the antidote, the medicine. A process that is not a quick fix or a cover for the symptoms. Which seems like what the 2ofP is doing. Instead when surrendered to, provides an amazing elixir for one's self and those they end up supporting. Thanks Jenna!
Such wisdom here, Julie, thank you! My tendency has always been to reach for the quick fix when I don't feel well (which I honor as being exactly what I needed for my capacity at the time), but when we can alchemize and integrate the pain it becomes about so much more than our own individual experience. That's truly beautiful. Thank you for helping me to see that!
Thanks Jenna, I think I'm going to take a break from the enquires myself this week, but take care of my inner child. Wonderful prompts as always and I take your wisdom and message with me for comfort and reassurance. 🙏
That's perfect, Louise. I'm so glad you're honoring yourself this way! And please give that amazing little girl inside of you a hug for me. 💕
Ah yes, my weekly message that never fails to amaze me! Thank you Jenna❤
This reading gives clarity to what is already staring me in the face, the childhood wounds and the orphan, while the Two of Pentacles reminds me that perhaps I'm holding too much as things are wobbly. This is confirmation...as if the Universe has one hand on each side of my face (gently of course!) saying "See here Sweetie, listen to Jenna"!!
Thank you for doing this, I appreciate your consistency. It is becoming something of a guiding light for me and I love learning what each of the cards mean.
Donna, I LOVE that we're here together! And that we can help each other hold things when it's too much. You're a guiding light for me too and I look forward to what the future holds for us both.
The child as hyper-independent is interesting, and I need to sit with that ideal (translation: #truth)
I hear you, Elyse! It's so easy for me to push relationships away (I think the Hermit plays a role in this too). I'm taking baby steps towards understanding the significance of inter-dependence as I see more and more through the lens of relational living. But it's a struggle!
I am still sitting in the corner, pouting like a hyper-independent grown woman child.... and the only reason why I am still in the corner is because my ego will not allow me to own up to my bullshit!!!!
This made me laugh because I relate to it so much!
I’m still sitting.... but I’ve inched to the center of the room...translation, I have yet to own my bullshit! 🥰😂🥰
The Wounded Child can only be expected to take baby steps anyway. Lol.
As you understand 1111.
It's interesting, I feel like there's so much about 1111 that I don't yet understand, but know that it's important. My ancestors especially, will show me repeating numbers when they're popping in to say hi or otherwise letting me know that they're thinking of me. Other repeating numbers feel like the equivalent of them waving to me, while 1111 feels like they've come in and gathered me up in a bear hug. I think there's much more to know about it all, but so far that's what I've got. Lol. What does it mean to you?
Manifestation. Bear hugs. Support
Love this piece Jenna! The wounded energy I’m releasing and transmuting this week is guilt so I can allow spaciousness for empowerment and liberation to be integrated in my BEing. Thank you for your wisdom, as always 🙏🏼💜
This is beautiful, Christine, thank you! I love that you named the specific wound. Guilt is so potent. It's like an even deeper echo of a wound, a shadow of a shadow if that makes sense. For me, guilt has sometimes been a guide to self-forgiveness, but it's not always easy. As I was just typing this, I tapped into your energy and felt a profound sense of spaciousness and empowerment, exactly as you said, you beautiful being! 💕
Great piece as I can relate to this as my childhood traumatic wounds still show up even though I do what I can to move forward.
I feel the same way, Miriam. More and more, I've come to think of "healing" not so much as getting rid of wounds, but integrating them into our wholeness as best we can, whatever that might look like. For me, the whole concept of "getting over it" never seemed to work. Thank you so much for being here, Miriam!
I never liked the term “healing from trauma” because it almost seems like you move past it where triggers no longer effect you, but that’s not always possible. But the way you put it makes a lot more sense. It does become who you are and that’s not always a bad thing.
Thank you so much for commenting, David. ❤️ I thought of you while writing this post. At the very beginning of your book, you wrote, "I sank my roots into the soil here and raised my face to the sky. I didn't discard my past. It lives inside me. My present self is a product of many things, including everything in my past. The important thing is, now I am at peace with all of it." I love that so much and I think it beautifully reflects the path of the Wounded Child.